I apologize. From your avatar, it appears that you are transgender. That is my mistake. I must assume that you have a divorce after you give birth. I must think that your ex does not want to feel like he is copulating with a man. You must not blame him. Unfortunately you appear to have male features. I have seen this in USA while I was there. Many times people with resemblance to you ride on back of Harley Davidson. Many large, hairy woman in those groups. I am sure you spent time in that group. In Europe, many of those women come from Russia. You have no fault.