I feel you man. It's life of the working stiff. But you can't give up! There is plenty of other shit out there to do. You just need to step up. Do something different. Go bold. Adopt a "can do" attitude and own it. You're down right now that's obvious, you need to get back up. Also use this site to network. If your comfortable tell us what you do. Sebody might have a lead or point you in the right direction.