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i hope people arent that stupid to fall for it..

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welcome

welcome nice car im partial to hondas myself.

What a horrible thing.. It's not fair. RIP..

fuck your face

wow im pretty shit faced thank god for speel check or else its all bad for me.. ok hollyhood over and out...

I'm not sure is I'm even handeling well at all.. Im only 24 and could not imagine my life being over next year. But I take one day at a time. I just wish I had more family to fall back on but my mom is it.. Growing up Gary was my father figure, since y mom worked many jobs to supportnus, he was all I have known. But the more I say the better I feel. Ideally need to go get another tattoo today! Damn I need money. Lol

Thanks but for you being sober for 21 years is amazing to me. You having the will power to be clean for that long takes a strong person. I will be careful tonight I'll be with the ones he was closest to.

Congrats to you and you amazing feat. But methadone is technicaly not an addictive drug, or so the doctors say, I say bullshit.. I too was into that downward spiral with Gary until I met matt. 21 years is quite and accomplishment. I will cheers to you.

Like I said this story probably doesn't make sense cause I left a lot out but he died from methadone toxicity, his organs shut down and he was bleeding internally. There was no where else for the blood to go. Also it wasn't pills he was taking he was an outpatient and in akron they give you the fluid form of the meds, easy enough to take so you can't leave the office and sell your dose. If you want to know more there is a website called HARMD.com and they explain it better then I can.

Well Today marks the three year anniversary of the death of my best friend and my closest family member to me. It was my brother Gary T. Cook jr. He was the one of the first people to get me into riding motorcycles. It was his katana back in the day that gave me my first taste of what freedom really felt like. He was the smartest person I knew but had no common sense.lol Now for the reason he passed away, it started with a surgery he had on his back two years before he passed away. The doctors gave him oxycodone to help make his pain tolerable. Gary wasn't one for pain so he keep taking the pills to make his back feel better. I don't know if any of you ever had a back surgery but from what he was telling me it was pretty painful. Well one thing led to another and he got addicted to the pills fast. Within 9 months he was hooked. He came to me upset cause he didn't know how to deal with the pain but get off the meds. So we looked around and found an outpatient clinic close to his house. This was a methadone clinic. Not sure if anyone knows about methadone bit it is a powerful drug (technicaly not a narcotic) that helps patients get off an opiate addiction like said pain killers. About a year and a half later Gary becomes very I'll, not realizing that in that time frame the doctors were raising his dose. I never in a million years would have suspected that this drug was killing my brother. It was shutting down his organs. The last week he was alive I was going to take him down there to lower if not get off these meds. I saw my brother on wednesday before that Sunday he passed. He told me he thought he was dieing and that he loved me. Well I'm like shut up Gary your 25 and you'll be fine. Gary had just lost his job and found out his girlfriend of 9 years was cheating on h with his cousin. My mom was in Myrtle beach at the time so she hadn't seen him in a week. Well basically he drowned from his blood filling his lungs. I feel better about getting it out and I know it must sound kind of jumbled together but it's been a rough morning for me. I appreciate you reading this. It didn't help that my Internet was out today and I'm posting this from my iPhone. I'm going to go out and get shiity faced tonight and not have a care in the world, cause who knows how long any of us will be here. There is slot more to the story so of you'd like to know just ask.

You have one.. I think you call her mom..

wow we have it all here.. glad im up north

Yay Ben for pre order. I stood In line yesterday for like 15 mins.

ok i dont see the problem:dunno:

do it! Do it! Do it!!

damn saturday wont work, i have birthday parties for the fam. But soon though!

damn money bags!! what the french toast! oh i just read the last part lol

haha ra tard.. IM DOWN!!! i mean IN!!

and whats wrong with wally world?? HMMMMM

I think we know these loving creatures do show up on the track. I'm sure I saw that thread..

well put it this way matt and i go out starting here from the metro park area in akron and end up in cleveland metro parks in like an hour or so. there are back roads anywhere you need to go. I think we stopped when we ended up in parma. not sure how ar that is from you but im pretty sure its do-able.