tbutera, you obviously know very little about the subject of addiction. For many people it's just doesn't work to say "I'm not doing it anymore." Personally, it took a doctor to tell me I was going to die of liver failure at 30 years of age to quit drinking. I wasn't an alcoholic that had to have a beer when I woke up, but I drank every day, it was just a part of my daily schedule. Get up, go to work, get off, go get beer, then go wherever I ended up. The times when I thought to myself I'm quiting this shit, would just lead to a binger. I've been to rehab more than once, a few times because of the courts, and once on my own. I am a really strong willed person, but some things are not just a matter of mind over matter. Carry on.