It was my fault for not backing them up since late DECEMBER.. AHHHH!
Ive gotten most back by now but Im sure Im missing some still.
They literally vanished.. in thin air.. POOF. GONE. I did nothing, no syncs, reboots, deletions nothing. Just gone. Phone has been acting shitty lately anyway. I replaced it with an ENV3 today, Ill use the PDA phone strictly for the data now and few calls. Junk!