Sorry for your loss man. I am with you though about deciding. I have twins on the way and I want to be here when they're born. I don't want to play russian rolette with my life and not be here to see them born or to raise them. I owe it to them to be a father to them. I don't want them to be fatherless and maybe even left to be raised by someone else who doesn't give a damn about them. I'm considering hanging up riding until they're 18 because of it. I don't want to be selfish and gamble my life from my children. I want to be there for them. Yes, everything is dangerous, but having a father there is very important for children and the wife, I don't want up to the ante on death by riding, so might have to cut riding out of the equation. My decision isn't from ME riding, it's from AUTOMOBILES coming towards me. Sometimes we just have to follow are hearts. If you don't feel right riding anymore, then more power to you. There's always fast cars. Anyway, hope time heals your wounds man. Sorry for your loss and may he RIP.