Travis I'll take a stab at this even though I'm rotten at this sort of thing... I'm guessing because you're a rider, you may be a very proud person, independent at heart and don't want to burden others. My grandpa and dad were very much that way, and I have a very strong streak of it as well. In fact, I pushed away my last GF because of it, but that's another story entirely. Anyway, only you are going to be able to determine what we can help you with because we don't want to disrespect you or make you feel any more hurt by this accident, but at the same time, we do want to help. People like us, trying to help, will make a few mistakes about what to say or do. We might not always be available because of our own obligations, but we'll find ways. And yes, we might accidentally make you uncomfortable just by offering to help because it could remind you of the long road to recovery and maybe coming to terms with some health limitations you never thought you'd have at this age. You might even worry about being felt sorry for or for bringing us down or that you might tear up around us. Or not - I don't know, I'm just casting those out there. The point is that having people to talk with about it, or anything else except the accident - your choice - WILL HELP, I earnestly believe that. In my own case with 4-level cervical stenosis and a scary surgery in Germany, I found it vital to talk with as many people as I could to give the thing a shared reality and extra perspectives to help me think through options. Anyone who knows me could confirm that admitting I couldn't figure it all out on my own was a huge impediment to me until I broke that habit and went the opposite direction. It was a huge breakthrough, and helped me see options and take action that ultimately helped me in untold ways. Honestly, having people to talk to without fear of judgement or pity is huge. Could a few of us meet you in Galion sometime? Or how about a phone call? FaceTime or Skype? I'm not trying to pick you up - LOL - but if you let us get creative, we might be able to broaden your perspective and calm down some of the spiraling that can frankly become obsessing. Like I said, I suck at this, but does any of that connect in any way for the better? - Scott