I normally wouldn't post anything like this to a forum. Nobody else involved is in OR so please bear with me and let me get this out. Last night, a good friend's son took his own life. Earlier this year, a desmohio member did the same and mostly the reaction was anger from everybody. But that was a peer...a person of my own generation. This was one of my generation's offspring. My friend's son. I cannot imagine what she is going through, and my grief for her and my own children, who played with her son growing up is so great, I can't begin to grieve for him. As a parent, I could not imagine losing one of my children and to have be becuase they took their own life? Most people who are left behind talk about how suicide is such a selfish act, but most people who are pushed that far feel it would be a relief to those left behind. Like pulling a band-aid off - it will hurt for a second, but be over before you know it, and the people left behind won't have this THING annoying them, dragging them down, not living up to their expectations, etc.. anymore. I wasn't able to be there for her today. I had my daughter and my ex went instead. Even after our divorce, we both have been able to maintain a close relationship with our mutual friend...I feel I let her down.