Its hard man, I know I live with Bipolar II with Rapid Cycling every day. There are allot of things that can help. It took me 3 years to find a medication that helped stablize me out with out some bad effects.
It's something I've learned to live with and anyone on the board or IRL that knows me knows the changes that I've made and how much of a diffrent person I've become since I took control of my life.
There are times I get so upset or angry that I just wanna destroy things and its the control to stop from going off on someone on CR or wanting to just give up completely that takes allot to learn.
If your truly having issues and just need to talk I've been threw allot. I'm not going into to much detail but trust me I've been down a long road.