I know we all loose it sometimes, but who has a bad/ short temper and what do you do to correct it and why do you feel like you loose it?
I'm asking because I have an evil temper. Ask most people who know me and they'll tell you I'm extremely easy going, I can roll with the punches and let a lot slide. But ask the people who have known me a while and are really close to me and they know every now and again I have a straight evil side. It scares me.
Today I was working on something and my boss rushes into my office and says something then turns around to walk out. I said hey and started to ask him a question. Then he just leaves. For whatever reason, I just got pissed! I remember feeling extremely insulted and disrespected. I mean he clearly heard me, he just said his peace and left. So I walk down the hall and said “John! Don’t fuckin walk away from me, I asked you a question. Now turn around and answer me!” He looked at me with just shock… I didn’t care. I said “What you did was rude!” Well he answered my question then that was it…It may not sound that bad, but cursing in a professional environment at your boss over nothing is kind of a big deal. I mean I could get written up or suspended or hells at the wrong time loose my job and or credibility.
What scares me is when I do, I don’t even give shit what happens. It’s calmed down over the years but has never left me 100%. When I was younger 17-18 I would get into fights. But most young men do I guess. Not goanna lie, I got the shit beat out of me for it sometimes. There was another situation when I was about 21 when I punched and choked the shit out of someone. He ended up passing out and it took a few people to pull me off. There is a lot of back round to that story, (no alcohol) some may say I did the right thing, but I don’t want to hurt people. I really don’t like that about me, but I feel like I may always have it. I’m 24 now and I’d say I may loose my temper once a month or maybe every 2 weeks if I’m really stressed... but when I do… it’s bad. . Since I’ve started boxing I think it’s gotten a lot better on the physical violence, but I still just get in a rage sometimes.
So what do you do when you get upset?