I'm so sorry to hear what you are going through. I just put my dog down on Monday. He collapsed on Saturday and went completely downhill where I didn't think he would make it until I scheduled his appointment to be put down on Monday. He was fine, but just a little under the weather the prior two weeks on and off. Turns out he had a rare auto-immune deficiency disorder called Evan's Syndrome. I have always had pets in my life and they are my family. Cosmo was my kid for sure. I was awake with him almost every moment from Sat-Mon (took a few cat naps) and it just was horrible. I almost feel guilty about not being as sad as I should, but I saw how much pain he was in. I think part of it is shock at how it came out of the blue too. I will recommend this... I found a vet nearby online and they were the cheapest. It is Vet Clinic East. Not only were they the cheapest, they were the BEST. Cosmo had to be carried in on a gurney (Golden Retriever). They went and prepped him while my family and I waited in a room that had a couch and a comfy chair. They also let us (my parents came down to be with me) bring my other two dogs along. Through experience, we've found that it is easier on the other dogs if they are there and can see what is happening instead of their buddy just walking out the door and never coming back. Anyway, we thought they were just putting us in there until we were called into the regular room. Nope. They brought him right into the room with us. It was so comfortable and peaceful. I laid on the floor and held him. All they had to do was give him a shot when I was ready and said to. Yes, it was difficult. However, he went so fast that I was shocked. I couldn't believe how fast it worked. It hurt, but at the same time, I knew he wasn't hurting anymore. The staff stayed with us to make sure we were ok and then gave us time alone with him afterward. They were even kind enough to ask us if we wanted some water and brought us a few bottles. My parents will have to put their dog to sleep soon and they said they plan on driving down from Cleveland just so they can go to this vet clinic. My dad even wants to send a thank you card. Ok, time to shed a few tears. If you need anyone to talk to, PM anytime. p.s. You should go. She gave you a lifetime of love. The least you can do is comfort her at the end of hers. She won't be as scared knowing you are right there by her side.