goodluck on recovering bud. I just lost my grandpap ( my dad's dad) and both me and my dad were close to him very much and when he died on monday it was a hit to both of us. you'll pull through but it will be a hard one. always keep busy, dont dwell on what you could've did to prevent it. He chose his road in life and like you said, the smoking and drinking caught up. sorry to here bud and best wishes to you and you're family. keep you're head up and be proud that you had this much time with him.