nah, you were just in shock for a second. Happens when something goes down like this - you tried to behave like nothing had happened in hopes that those actions would make that true. Then reality sets it! Nothin' like that gray matter between our ears...especially when it becomes a survival thing. It must've been sharp to quite bleeding fast, so that's GOOD news! i don't know you at all, but I hope you feel better, and your thumb feels OK and Daytona is the shiznat!