You go off the road at least twice and you weren't close to being in over your head. I don't have to be there to understand that. Your inability to admit this fact is putting you into the category of riding like an asshat and you should be apologizing to the others in that group for being one. I have been guilty of being in over my head in the past, luckily it didn't affect others. There are plenty of people here who can help you with that problem and I would be glad to do so if you can get over yourself and ask for some riding tips. The next two rides for that group I have conflicting plans for but I will make it to one of them before summer is over.